tools of procrastination part 2

Sunday, February 25, 2007

bread of life

so blogger changed. if you read this and don't have a blog then that means nothing to you, but it was an interesting surprise for me tonight. it's probably part of while i will not be deleting my blog just yet (something i've been considering for a while). i mean come on, i just went through the strenuous two-minute process of upgrading this thing, you think i'll abandon it now?? on to the important things...

work, work, work. i tried, and i think succeeded, to stop talking about that place on here. but now, i must discuss at least a little. the past few weeks have been particularly difficult for me and i don't really know why. there was a brief period during which NOTHING at work bothered me and i was pretty worried about that fact. but now that things are bothering me, i'm almost wishing for my apathy back. my days have been filled with sexual abuse which is always a ball of happiness. then there have been several people, one in particular that yelled at me on friday, that have made me feel bad and frustrated and told me i'm killing their children. and finally there was the strangest case i've heard so far that involved rattlesnakes, children and meth - always an exciting combination.

so needless to say, when i sat down in church today i felt like i was about to burst. i was thinking about the things i hear and the fact that i could have been quite content in my life never even having imagined them. the things people do to each other, to their supposed loved ones, to defenseless chlidren, elderly and disabled people. i was feeling so disappointed in humanity and tears were welling up in my eyes. and then, i looked around. i looked at the smiling faces of old men hugging each other. i looked at the family in front of me with the disabled and always joyful son who recites every prayer so loudly. i looked at the fathers helping their tiny children into the pews. i looked at our devoted and loving priest. and just like that my faith in people was restored and a sense of peace came over me.

what i love about my church is that it is nothing glamorous. it isn't filled with wealthy or extraordinary-looking people. they are ordinary, often plain people from every imaginable walk of life. and we come together every week to celebrate a faith that tells us that there is hope for the people i hear about at work. a faith that teaches us that there is always hope that people can and will change. and a belief that God is with us every second of every day and that what i do at work follows His call for us to help the least among us. and that makes me happier than any job ever could.

Monday, February 12, 2007

sunday mornings i miss you the most

i feel i need to blog, if nothing else than to move the pity-party of a previous post on down the page. alliteration anyone?

today has been lovely. i may have discovered the way to enjoy my mondays off. sleep in, eat breakfast/watch ellen, clean, looong workout, shower, read, nap, do laundry. the perfect mix of productivity and relaxation. hopefully sometime soon i'll be volunteering at a food pantry for 3 hours every monday. after all, somebody's gotta direct people to the green beans.

recently i have:

learned to appreciate yoga it's something i used to loathe. relaxation my big toe. when you are particularly NOT flexible, contorting your body is painful and not peaceful. however i've found a kind that is "power" yoga and seems more like it should be hard work and i like it.

restarted soccer. technically first game is tomorrow against the team that won the summer league. now we have full-sized goals instead of the ones 3 year old use. yay. we won't get pummelled at all. oh and we have the worst name in the league. again. but i'm looking forward to it all the same.

purchased a $10 ticket to DC for the beginning of march. it's like 10 degrees up there all the time. it's 60 something today in austin. i will freeze and whine endlessly no doubt. but i will love the sites and i get to see my aunt sing in an opera at the kennedy center (tickets pending) and i'll be in marvelous company. it will be fun and i'll be sure to share stories, pics, etc. when i come back.

thrust myself into the realm of uber-involvement at church. as i've mentioned previously, i'll be working with the social justice committee on thursday nights. beginning tonight i'm also brain-washing teens into signing their souls over to the pope (i.e. teaching confirmation classes) and then next week i'll begin leading a lenten bible study. who on earth decided that i would be a suitable spiritual guide for these adorable little balls of teenage madness, i will never know. but i'm leading them all the same. be afraid. and then there's the aforementioned mondays at the food pantry. my once blank schedule has suddenly be filled. it should be a nice change of pace.

been asked to be a "skilled user" for a program at work. this means i'll have to help everyone else troubleshoot their problems. this could be a problem considering the fact that i can't even get into the program with the password and username i was given. think there are super duper skilled users to help me?

i'm currently attempting to grow my hair out. i have dreams in which my hair is long, flowing and adorably styled. i wake up and it's just short and awkward. this too shall pass.

i am boring and unfunny. monday's will do that to you.