the key to my happiness

i've struggled a lot in college station and had a tortured soul as a result. the first few years here i desperately strove to be liked, grasping at straws to fit in, juggling activities and half-hearted friends in the pursuit of joy.

and then one day, i dropped them and walked away. it's amazing how simple it was to attain what i'd been seeking for so long. the past few months i've distanced myself from all the crap that has made me feel guilty, used and fake. i've created an insulated reality that consists of only the things i truly enjoy, like art and books and cafe mochas and awe-inspiring music and culinary experimentation of a healthy nature and one angelic little sister and loving roommates and friends who are hundreds of miles away but feel closer than those a mile away and a future about which i could not be more excited. i'm fully aware of the temporal nature of my newfound reality, but for the next few months i'm going to relish it.